“I persevered and held my own hand through the hardest days of my life. I carried the strength that I needed to fight for who I was. I stood proud with my head held high!!”
I’ve been sitting with this for awhile and wanted to put it out there to you. I have a story that I’d like to share that will hopefully help and touch other gay woman. I want them to know they aren’t alone.
I come form a very strict cultural background even though I was born in Australia. I was hiding. Hiding for years and feared I would lose my family if they ever found out about that part of me. When my family found out I was gay I was then given a choice to leave or continue with the life I was living. For 14 years my family didn’t want anything to do with me. They didn’t want to know who I was or where I was. It really shattered me internally. I felt lost, abandoned and rejected. At the same time, I also felt free and like a weight had be lifted off of my shoulders. I went from being angry with them to actually accepting the fact that it was also hard on them and wanted to be compassionate and still show them love.
I felt for years like a dark cloud was sitting over my shoulder. I felt a part of me had be torn out of my body and I didn’t know where I belonged. Somehow I knew that I would always be ok since I saw light and I knew I was some sort of warrior/survivor. I started some internal healing a few years back and saw a therapist. I wanted to better myself and find ways to accept myself without feeling the need to be accepted by my own family. I decided to take responsibility for who I was by honoring myself and the spirit that lived in my own skin. Whilst in therapy I studied therapy and knew I wanted to help others who struggled with acceptance of themselves and their sexuality. I really wanted others to know they weren’t alone and that there was always support out there if they reached out.
Here I am 14 years later and I’ve come around full circle. My family is back in my life. I persevered and held my own hand through the hardest days of my life. I carried the strength that I needed to fight for who I was. I stood proud with my head held high!!
If this has happened or is happening to you there is support. It’s not worth losing your life, or self sabotaging your soul because others find something wrong in you. I want to reach out and connect our community no matter where they are in the world.
Steph, I don’t know why it’s taken me so long to share my story especially with someone I don’t really know but I remembered at Dinah Shore how lovely your energy was and how warm you were.
Love n light,
JEN NOHRA AUSTRALIA
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